ANTWON | Antwon Vinnie

All my life I’ve been trying to find

the perfect combination of lines to fully express

complexities inside

As I got older I’d go out less and I’d stay inside

Everything gave me the shivers I felt the darkness slide

I’d abide with hating humans and all your lies

For fear of what would happen if I don’t bolster your pride

As often as I’ve holstered emotions in my darkest times

I’ve held on to the many traumas that left me blind

A living oxymoron who’s growing smaller

I’m getting taller but my dreams are foregone in the hands of father time

I look up and the skies are blue but the clouds still there

Shrouds of sadness no matter the color of the air

The grey never failed to leave me blue

Very true

Emotions they will swallow you in tombs made for the brains aloof

I need proof that this path I’ve chosen was worth it

I don’t want to just grow up to spend everyday of it hurting

I’m lost for words. it’s nothing new

I have dark side. And so do you

I feel like everyone’s got something to prove but I’m just

Trying to move but don’t know what to do

I’m that voice that you hear but says nothing

I’m that part of you still looking for something

Anything to put and end to to the judging

The part of you that despises it’s own becoming

The part of you that ignores all the signs

Looking for more but scared to leave the confines

Invisible unless you read tween’ the lines

I’m your, your dark in the lightest of times

I’m Antwon.

I don't want to be me

I just need somebody to help me see

I just want to live free

From all this darkness deep inside of me

All the shit I’ve been through, I’m still here

Cause everything I do I do to kill fear

I make music for the ill ear, I will steer

Clear of the ones that will smear, everything that I hold dear

all I know is that my skill sheer

They used to call me queer Fuck Em'!

Another year older and another year closer

To everything I’ve ever dreamed about. I know that day is near

There’s a half empty part of me

That only sees

The difficulty in each opportunity

I’m losing touch

With the truest me

Late to my own life, I guess you can call it truancy

Who is he.

Words I speak so fluently

This darkness always been here, this shit isn’t new to me

You won’t love him till he’s gone, singing saddest songs

His name is Antwon